AttackOfTheLazerCatz

I’m happy again :)

Tue, 30 Apr 2013 21:04:45 +0100

I’m happy again :)

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Got a date Monday :)

Wed, 24 Apr 2013 21:56:10 +0100

Got a date Monday :)

Sleeping with my phone next to my bed so I can hear it if you text…

Tue, 23 Apr 2013 23:28:51 +0100

Sleeping with my phone next to my bed so I can hear it if you text…

This no talking thing is freaking difficult when all I want to do is drive to yours and kiss you.

Tue, 23 Apr 2013 20:40:05 +0100

This no talking thing is freaking difficult when all I want to do is drive to yours and kiss you.

I really hope you're okay Neil :( I know we don't talk much anymore but please remember I'm always here if you need a friend xxx

Mon, 22 Apr 2013 22:10:16 +0100

Thank you charlizberry :) I’m doing better now, just one day at a time and see how things go :) Your support is much appreciated x

My heart is pounding so fucking much right now I don’t know whether I’m going to scream...

Sun, 21 Apr 2013 17:44:05 +0100

My heart is pounding so fucking much right now I don’t know whether I’m going to scream and cry or punch another hole in my wall

Actually so confused with life right now… I could move on if I wanted and to be honest,...

Sun, 21 Apr 2013 01:21:00 +0100

Actually so confused with life right now… I could move on if I wanted and to be honest, I’d probably be alright at doing that, but I don’t want to because I could look around and find some random girl and have things in common but at the end of the day she wouldn’t be you.

It weird to think how much we rely on other people without actually knowing. Personally I relied on my ex so much…my ex, I even hate referring her to that, she’s always going to be the girl who I want to spend me life with, who doesn’t want me back….It was the small things like going town, I can’t do that on my own, I don’t know why but I have an outrageously bad anxiety problem when it comes to more than just one person, she made that go away though, and I realise that someone else could come along and make me feel the same but maybe I liked the way she dealt with it.

I just don’t get where I went wrong, I took you out all the time, I told you how much I loved you every single day, I cooked for you, cleaned and shit, I genuinely loved you for who you were, not who I wanted you to be, and supported you as much as I could at every stage, whether it be searching town for frame clips or driving you to work…but that wasn’t enough, but I don’t know what else I could have given you, because I really gave you everything and would have ran through hell if you asked me too, and I think you knew that…I suppose you could say that I idolized you.

I just miss you so much, not the girlfriend benefits but you, yourself, the way you’d make random squeaks and feel the need to run around the room, and the way you’d leave a mess no matter where you went, or get food in your hair regardless of what you were eating. I miss the way that you’d push your head into my chest whilst getting comfy, and the way you’d make me feel on a daily basis.

I suppose its safe to say i miss how things were at the start of the relationship, that mystery, how we spent the first night together just talking and trying to avoid temptation, then spending the following day just walking around the park getting ice cream in your hair, and how you used to be happy, before I so clearly made you not…

I don’t know…what do I say to make you want to be with me without me saying a word. Surely if you’d really wanted to be with me you would have drunk called me or text me and you haven’t ..should I take this as a sign? your clearly getting attention somewhere else because you strive off things like that and if you weren’t I feel you probably would have text me or something…I try not to think about that though, I try to think that things are going to be OK when the hard truth is that they’re not. Not at all. I’ll have lost a girl I feel I treated right for no reason other than they gave up on me.

There isn’t a second of the day I don’t think about you and wish that today might be the day you text me to tell me you’ve made a mistake…but you won’t, maybe that’s just something i need to deal with, maybe you need to just tell me there’s someone else and to stop trying if you really don’t want to be with me, or else let me help with whats going on in your head…

Feel like crap but I can’t sleep knowing you could be with someone else right now. Just sucks.

Sat, 20 Apr 2013 02:22:01 +0100

Feel like crap but I can’t sleep knowing you could be with someone else right now. Just sucks.

Understand something, you can think I’m better off without you all you like, but...

Fri, 19 Apr 2013 23:00:13 +0100

Understand something, you can think I’m better off without you all you like, but that doesn’t make it true.

I’m so happy things went well for you, it sounds like you made a good first impression, but...

Fri, 19 Apr 2013 00:25:06 +0100

I’m so happy things went well for you, it sounds like you made a good first impression, but sounds like it was hard work! Genuinely impressed with how you’ve managed to handle things and cope with your current situation but still get on with things. I’m happy for you, I really am, but I know you could do it.

Just be yourself and you’ll get through this no problem. You really want to do this and I know you can achieve it, you managed to get this far completely on your own without the right qualifications, so it should be easy sailing to get the rest sorted. Honestly, you know I can be a hard ass at times, but I know you can get there if you keep trying, as cliche as it is, I completely believe in you.

I wish you all the luck in the world, and you know you loved those mardy GCSE kids :)

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The Ice Dance Piano (by mcw84) - beautifull

Tue, 16 Apr 2013 21:53:26 +0100

The Ice Dance Piano (by mcw84) - beautifull